Tras mi payasa o la manera cómica de aceptarme y valorarme

Abstract

“Beyond My Clown: Exploring the Duality of Being a Woman and an Artist” is a transdisciplinary research-creation project that employs methodological approaches including autoethnography, ethnography, genealogy, performance, and clown techniques, as seen through the lens of Clownetnography (King, B., 2017, p. 28). This project investigates the duality I face as a woman and artist, specifically the tension between being a mother and being an actress, and reveals the meanings of success associated with these roles. These meanings are shaped by societal norms and academic expectations regarding success in my environment and artistic training. Through these methodological and transdisciplinary resources, and by writing and reminiscing about my experiences during my undergraduate education and my professional and artistic career, I recognize writing as a form of research. This process leads to the development of a personal creative path for discovering and utilizing the comedic resources of my clown persona, resulting in a practice that is emergent, creative, distinctive, and feminist. In this exploration, the language of the clown is revealed as a crucial tool, described by Barnaby King as Clownetnography, which coincides with the discovery of the Colombian Clown Network. This network serves as a platform and research space for female clowns, providing me with the validation and confidence to explore new artistic expressions.