Inter-sensibilidades de a burla. Prácticas de investigación-creación para la transformación de la experiencia de mí misma en relación a la gordura

Abstract

This research-creation project argues theoretically, experientially and creatively, my process of transforming the experiences of mis-present in my life related to teasing and violations towards my body for being a fat woman. I enunciate myself as a researcher performer of the artistic studies which resorts to the auto-poietic creative processes to re-invent, I declare myself as a daughter, sister, aunt, woman, crossed by the ideas of romantic love, of sexuality, of being a good woman, represented by my family and my socio-personal relationships, through parenting and rejection practices towards my body. I evidence the bad-being in all the dimensions of the experience of myself: personal, physical, energetic, social, labor, sexual ... and from there, I formulate the following research question: How to transform the experience of myself, in relationship to fatness through performance? This project is attached to the line of research in critical studies of corporeity, sensitivities and performativities, and has as a methodological statement the possibility of inquiring to understand. I gather the experience through methodological tools such as the writing of self-ethnographic stories, scriptural recording of dreams, personal corpo- graphy and genealogy of my family and from there I propose practices of creation of performance with the Group of Creation Pasarela, for to recognize myself in nakedness, in carnality and to try to improve my life. As final results, this project presents two contributions to the field of artistic studies, the first the assessment of the inter-sensitivities of mockery as mechanisms of violation to the body and the existence of people and the second in response to the question, proposes the moments of performance as a creative force for existence.